theyregooddogs | (no subject)

[softer . . . ]

Some can. Actually, many can. But I don't move forward out of hope, only fear— Terror. So, I try to give space to the many reasons why people push on. Or stop and even retreat.

. . . I see.

[he mulls that over, because as a force inspired by determination, conviction, and in some cases, anger? he hadn't really thought about that]

[but it makes sense]

What are you afraid of, Graham?

Edited 2017-12-29 06:40 (UTC)

And am thus moved by? . . . What happens if and when I don't act. It took a lot to push me into retirement.

[another lengthy pause, and then a quiet response]

Me too.

Don't over-identify with me. My situation was simple; if I didn't help catch these murderers, then someone else would would end up dead. It was very clean and dangerous circumstances.

You— You, however, worry about the hurricane that is caused by the butterfly's wings. There are a thousand different threads to follow, so you are gathering them all up rather than cutting any of them because of what could come.

[tilts his head to the side, grinning slightly]

You don't know everything about what my life was like before I came here. Maybe it isn't over-identification, but something I've been afraid of ever since I was arrested.

[he stands up a little straighter]

. . . I will keep things under control. That, I can promise you.

What things? Everything?

Everything within my power to control.

[Akechi. he mostly means Akechi]

[that's what he was hoping]

Mm. Good luck.

Thanks.

[glancing back at his lock picks]

Still a no on that hot chocolate?

[. . . sighing]

I prefer coffee.

So do I.

I thought I'd change it up when you commented on my coffee habits, though.

Unlike you, I can control how much coffee I drink, though. Unless you're trying to say you can't make coffee and not drink it?

I can, but I see no reason why I should in these circumstances.

And do you normally drink coffee like water?

No.

Here, it's good at calming my nerves.

It's a stimulant. You're associating the context in which you previously drank coffee which did calm your nerves with the sensation of drinking coffee.

[there's a pause, because. . . well. yeah. that's 100% true. because coffee is associated with Leblanc. Leblanc is associated with Sojiro, and Futaba, and Morgana. those three are associated with family]

[and family is a comfort]

Is that really so bad?

No, but you can remove the middle man, i.e. coffee.

And replace it with what? Just memories?

And with something that isn't a drug if you want to hook the association onto something. Candy, toast, sweets.

Edited 2017-12-31 05:11 (UTC)

[small whine]

None of those sound nearly as good. . .

Because you have an addiction and false association.

I'm pretty sure 80% of the world is addicted to caffeine.

It's lower than that. Not that much of the world even has access to clean water.